You try for something for years and its just that fifteen minutes that decides how or what you are going to be for your next fifty years. So bloody unfair.. !! I cannot take defeats well. I suck at it. I behave like a complete nut case, totally lose it. But that's me.. I cannot help it. That dreaded interview, where I was sitting like a dumb idiot nodding my head at whatever was said to me.

So, Why MBA? "cos my parents want me to do it, all my friends are planning for it, and I have heard it gives you a nice job with a good pocket money"!!! ... This is absolute bull shit sir. The real reason is "sir actually I think after my stint in the IT industry, a formal MBA is imperative for me to achieve my long term goals. I think a MBA helps you develop a structured approach towards a problem and also develops your analytical skills to take a strategic decision. In a nut shell, I think a MBA will add tremendous value to me. " Wow, I can indeed crap.

OK, why specialise in marketing then? "Idiot you made us choose one option out of the four, and after rounds of inki pinki po.. my pen landed on the marketing bubble. " I wish I could say that.. but instead "Sir, I believe marketing is a blend of art and science. Art because you have to be creative enough to make a product work. Science because you have to do your homework on which the creativity will be based on. Marketing give you the power to be in a group of select few, which decides how and what the other larger group decides and chooses."

How did you develop an interest in marketing? "Interest.. You kidding me. I mean do you seriously think any of the i-want-to-be-a-visionary-leader has an interest in what you plan to teach them. Grrr... wake up morons.. Take a walk" .. but what came out was "Sir, from the time I have started working I have developed a keen interest in marketing. The reason behind this is that my mentor at work is from the portfolio team. And his job is basically to know the current technology trends, the customer needs and how to engineer the technology to cater to the customers needs and develop new solutions for them. " Am I good or not.

So, why not do a course designed for that? "Listen you old bugger. If I really wanted to do that, why would I be wasting a beautiful Sunday, sitting in front of you and answering you stupid questions".. He thinks he has delivered the knock out punch.. but wait.. "Sir, I just gave you the reason why I developed an interest in marketing. I never mentioned that I would return to the telecom domain. What I wanted to say was that I was fascinated by the whole idea and was more than willing to learn all the aspects of this very interesting field." Nods of appreciation all around.

But now the bad part starts. So, you have been doing good at your work. Tell me, do you like your work? "To be very honest I do like what I am doing. So for a change let me speak the truth." ... "hmmm.. yes sir, I am pretty much satisfied and am happy with my job profile!!"The old man replied.. The answer was pretty much expected. I think you should carry on with you technical job. Our country needs good technical people too. As it is, we are producing loads and loads of managers every year. "no no no.. I take back my answer. I hate my job. I seriously do. Please take me. Please take me" !! but alas, it was too little too late. I have to admit that there were serious counter questioning to my answers and I fumbled a bit too. So, I don't blame them for rejecting me straight away. Plus there were people who were president of five clubs in college, played carnatic music for decades, i-have-done-it-all in life, and I didn't stand a chance in front of them. But even after making my peace with it, the disappointment, the pain, the misery ceases to end. The last two weeks have been the most blood-sucking-mind-fucking time for a very long time now. I seriously am planning to take the old man's advice and continue with what I am doing. But then "life is unfair!!!"